Losing Out

While browsing online today I came arcoss her...
Manohara Odelia Pinot



While she seems like another beautiful face
She is actually a Princess of American and Indonesian decent

"She was a socialite and model who married into royalty
But she says life with her prince was no fairy tale
She claims he abused and raped her and held her captive
Until her dramatic escape in Singapore"

Where is Sora when you need him?
I guess power leads people to believe they can do whatever the fuck they want
It also makes me wonder does an average joe like me
Have a shot at a woman like that...

Another Day, Another Dollar

Time

It's all about progress

Identity

Drowning in a sea of emotions

Reaching new depths

I've embraced the silence as if nothing was wrong

A voyage into your eyes

I never know what I shall find

A voyage into the city

I never know who I shall be

Inspired by this song

Yesterday's Gone

I woke up today feeling refreshed

This weekend my thoughts were heavy

Those feelings have withdrawn for the time being

I'm sure they will arise again sooner than later

When they do... I will be ready

I never take my brief moments of happiness for granted

Are you in that mood yet?

My thoughts are my only fear

Usually nothing is ever really wrong with me (At least anything monumental)

By thinking with simple logic, I can easily get over my thoughts

When they do enter a state of confusion

But as of yesterday, I seen something

...Something that took me to a place I did not want to venture to

A place in my mind where my thoughts have the upper hand

This is when I become filled with rage

All my new friends that met me after 2008 have never seen me truly angry

I guess I have alcohol and peaceful music for that

It's almost like a power up to even the playing field

It washes my thoughts away until I cool down and can think at a logical state

This really isn't like me... this feeling

I didn't want to be this way

I was forced to be the way I am

I wanted to be delicate

Everytime Is The Last Time

A lot of thoughts run through my mind while listening to this
One of the most peaceful tunes I've heard in a while
It has an awkward sense of hope
Almost as if everything is going to be okay
One can only dream

Just As Sweet As Can Be

Sugar Honey Iced Tea



Just what I need after I woke up this morning with a sore throat
(Thank You Soichi)
I felt like I was coming down with a minor cold... again
Guess that what happens when you don't dress warm
Or at least when you live in Michigan and the weather changes in an instant
You got to love living in a state surrounded by water

Aim High

Easily one of my favorite scenes in a comedy

A New Revolution

"I love you" has to be the most overused phrase in songs, poems and life in general
Its such a cliché and cruel phrase
There are other ways to display the strange phenomenon known as "Love"

Other than using a "popular phrase"

The "only way" doesn't exist

Tolochenaz

Possibly the ONLY woman that is more beautiful than

Jessica Alba

It would have been delightful to meet

Audrey Hepburn

That Old Familar Feeling

I Need To Buy : An iPad

Apple iPad Wi-Fi + 3G

It looks cool... that's a good enough reason to buy it, right?

A Week Without You

I can't really decide if I want to go on a vacation this summer
If I do though I know exactly where I'd want to go



Still clueless as to where I'm talking about?



Beautiful, eh?
I wanna go to the Leelanau Peninsula
Sounds like its somewhere in Hawaii but it's actually in Michigan
Just north of Traverse City (Self proclaimed cherry capital of the WORLD)
And only a six hour drive from Detroit...
Thats not that bad for powder beaches and crystal clear lakes
Seems like the perfect place to find inner peace on those rough summer nights

Bloodsucker

Little by little this city drains the life from me

Patiently Waiting

American Idiot

I would personally like to thank my good ol' buddy Trevon
Thanks to him, I may not have a job at Wal-Mart
He let me use his urine for a drug test
Yet failed to tell me he smoked weed a week prior to the test
Despite him telling me he NEVER smoked weed
I still asked him many times "Have you done any drugs including prescriptions recently?"
And he still told me "No"
Therefore...

Hidden Gems

I Need To Buy : A Camera

Nikon D3000 Digital SLR Camera

All I Ever Wanted

Was to pick apart the day
Put the pieces back together
MY WAY

Sex Works!

Natsumi Takahashi

Cexwork

Once Again

I'm caught in the middle

Of a war that will never end

"Just like this city, I will never be joined"

When negative tension ascends between two friends

Staying neutral is the smartest option one has

Especially when both sides make reasonable arguements

It's a battle that could last a lifetime

Be prepared for the worst

I Need To Buy : A Guitar

Fender Classic Series '50s Telecaster

Rest In Peace My Friend

You've served me well



It's weird how I've had my Dreamcast for over a decade
and it still works
This is the 3rd time my xbox has broke
Microsoft needs to step their game up

Drunken Thoughts

I'm not concerned with what anyone else is doing with their life
It's their life
This may contradict what I just said but
Why people are fascinated with other people's lives
I tend to hear "so and so" isn't doing anything with their life
Have you ever stopped to think that maybe "so and so" is happy with their life

I'm not going to act like I don't talk about people... It's human nature
BUT
I would never talk about what someone else is doing with their life
WHEN THEY ARE CLEARLY HAPPY

If someone thinks being successful is going to school
Getting a degree and having a great career, I would beg to differ
But then again that's just my opinion
Many people who are in school are miserable

Simply because its not what they want to do or other various reasons

That's not how one's life should be spent
Life should be spent doing whatever makes you happy
Not what society has "programmed" you to do
Break free from the chains and live

To Binge

The beautiful Yukimi Nagano

Waiting by the mailbox, by the train
Passin' by the hills 'til I hear the name
I'm looking for a saw to cut these chains in half and all I want is
Someone to rely on as
Thunder comes a rolling down
Someone to rely on as
Lightning comes a staring in again

I'll wait to be forgiven
Maybe I never will
My star has left me
To take the bitter pill
That shattered feeling
Well the cause of it's a lesson learned
Just don't know if I could roll into the sea again
"Just don't know if I could do it all again" she said, it's true

Waiting in my room and I lock the door
I watch the colored animals across the floor
And I'm looking from a distance
And I'm listening to the whispers
And oh it aint the same, when your falling out of feeling and your
Falling in and caught again

I'm caught again in the mystery
Your by my side, but are you still with me?
The answers somewhere deep in it, I'm sorry but your feeling it
But I just have to tell that I love you so much these days
Have to tell you that I love you so much these days, it's true

My heart is in economy
Due to this autonomy
Rolling in and caught again
Caught again

My heart is in economy
Due to this autonomy
Rolling in and caught again
Caught again

Eternal Return

Its fascinating what one can learn or imagine just from a conversation
After speaking with one of my good friends last night
I've been inspired in more ways than one
Not only have I been inspired to immerse myself back into my music
I have also have been inspired to travel



Destination: Europe
When: Winter 2011

Good Enough

Is there even a such thing as being good enough?
OR
Is everything I do just not enough for someone else?

The feeling is horrible
Putting everything you got into something but in the end it still wasn't enough
Constantly trying to figure out
Where you went wrong
What you could have done better
As long as one is good enough for themself...
Thats all that matters

"I don't care now what you say cause everyday, I'm feeling fine with myself"